the truth behind the fad
Welcome to what it's about. I am going to write about my experiences with AGP relationships and my general thoughts about what’s going on. I don’t claim to be making an academic thesis here, but more like a rambling personal memoir. I hope others find my experiences helpful. I am not always the most sympathetic character in my stories but I try to be as honest as I possibly can.
First, a warning: I write very, very frankly and explicitly about the sexual aspect of my relationships with autogynephilic men in a way that might not be for everyone. This is because the objectifying and disgusting acts I was manipulated into performing are what have enraged and damaged me the most. This aspect is what has changed me and my relationship with my own body and my ability to form new relationships and what I feel most compelled to divulge. I feel so compelled both because I want those who downplay the role and influence of AGP males in trans activism and who minimize the enormous damage it can create need to become aware of how abusive and insidious it can be and also because I feel it is one of the lesser discussed aspects (understandably).
Because I am fully anonymous here, I am more free to expose those parts of my life without fear of my children finding out what has gone on (one of these relationships took place “in front of” them after all and they are not yet aware of why the relationship ended). I believe that many women are not aware of how overwhelming male fetishes can become and how obsessive and controlling the fetishist’s sexual demands may become - women after all do not have fetishes, they are a solely male affliction. Recent conversations among gender critical feminists have shown that there might still be a “blind spot” of sorts that is still separating some of the GC community. I also hope that reading the stories of trans widows will help warn other women of the potential harm that they may be able to avoid by looking for red flags early on in heterosexual relationships. By that I mean that yes, he may only like to try on your underwear occasionally but it can and likely will take over one day after the magical middle age is reached - and the man you share a deep connection with will suddenly “disappear” and turn into someone completely different.